“No matter whether you believe in luck or chance, the final decision is from yourself.” ― Stephen Richards

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I'm so sorry I almost let the butterfly die. I'm so sorry just... I'm sorry I hate that I even thought of all those things. I'm sorry.

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Breakeven | The Script
 
Sorry this set isn't super amazing the one I made early was amazing and yea Polyvore kinda deleted #polyvoreimawhorchyourmom #yeaisaidwhorch #whorch
 
Well um... Today was... Better.
So apparently getting over everything and being happy is... is gonna take a lot longer than one day.
I don't wanna complain to you guys cause that's pretty much been the past 2 days.
So yea... Um I guess my phone has been pretty good today nothing bad when I hit shuffle... except faggot by MSI came on haha opps.
Anyways I seriously wanna be homeschooled. Like was pretty much gonna have a breakdown from all this crap and then I got pushed and sooo many people touched me. Plus I have had so many breakdowns because I could not do the work. Teachers do not teach and I feel awful if I fail a paper because it's another reason my parents can say s h i t.
 
Okay um... Done complaining oh oh
My friend this chick @shelby-parkertw is awesome follow her or else #illripoffyourdick #yeaallguyshavedicks #evenpeoplewithvaginas

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*long dramatic sigh*
 
Sadly the title is kinda right and maybe I just need to accept the fact that I screwed up. Honestly if I keep pushing myself into that hole of depression I might as well die and I don't wanna die yet. I've planned so many things for the future. I've got a guitar recital and chapter 8 to post and even chapter 9 to write. So I'm not going to be upset I'll be better off. I'm done with the blades I'm done with the stress. It's all over. My future will be awesome and if it's not there's still more future.
I mean I guess unless I'm like 80 and on my death bed from smoking or crack *crake* OD
 
Haha ima really go cause the power may or may not go out and we have 15 minuets left of school. #ifuckedyourmom #jkitwasphils
Okay I'm really gonna leave now I love you all you're super amazing and gorgeous.
 
@welcome-to-the-bandom *I will protect you from the tornadoes... I will personally walk to your house ily*
@lets-go-to-where-the-monsters-go
@your-worst-nightmare-ever
Thank you guys for being there i promise to be okay you helped so much I probably would have broken down even more without any of you.

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Kissing in Cars | PTV
 
Well um... I feel like complete s h i t and a j a c k a s s. Yea that whole IDGAF mood left and I'm literally playing Kissing in Cars over and over and having random break downs.
God I'm so stupid. I screw everything up. I wish no one came to my house that night. I wish I had the guts to do it. God I screw up everything. I can't even keep friends.
I really wish I was home so I can blast PTV and live in self- pity. #throwingpitypartiesyay
#notfun
 
So I'm probably bothering everyone with my self-hate and being depressed so ima go maybe if I wasn't so stupid this wouldn't be happening, but I am so whatever.

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No because of yesterday, but because I feel worthless and stupid and that I really don't matter to anyone. I'm right I seriously don't and apparently everything hit me this morning. It hurts the whole I don't care hahaha I'm dying has left. I feel like I'm back in October wanting to die everyday because I mean nothing. Not because I lost someone. Not because the person I fell in love with turned out not to be that person. It's because I woke up and started thinking. About all the stuff and how I'm just one person who somehow got lucky and made awesome friends. Then somehow got to keep them for 3 years. Then I screwed things up I shouldn't sad I'm the b i t c h it was my fault, but honestly I didn't pity you in the end I'm certain I was the charity case. I was the one everyone hopes to fix, but has to give up because you can't.
Fixing me has left I'm too far broken and I never believed that to be possible.
 
Well I have to go. Sorry if you read all that. I wouldn't call any of it lies because it's kinda true. Anyway bye I'll try and be better later maybe unless I like fell back into being unstable in one night (I doubt that happened)

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Yea um not only is one of my friends an a s s h o l e but I lost a friend because I'm a b i t c h maybe tommorow someone can remind me that I'm stupid and worthless and I'll screw up an ankle or something... not that I don't already do that.
 
Yea um... I seriously do not care. I know it's all gonna kinda hit me and I'll break down, but as of right now I'm just kinda like anything could happen and I'll just kinda laugh and be like IDGAF

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Yea I'm all alone for the next 30 minutes with thoughts and PTV and stuff is literally eating me alive. I'm really sorry I will make a better set just... Yea I promise
 
Kinda wondering if maybe she lied... I mean she's lied about a s h i t load of stuff this could just go on the list... And if she didn't that makes him more of an a s s h o l e. God wow I really don't think anyone lied i don't know how she found out, but that really... now that I think about it that is something he would do. I know you won't read this, but after all the girls that you said screwed you over why would go and do that.
 
Okay I'm not really done complaining and stuff, but that's enough relief to at least get me through 4 more classes. I'm just kinda sad that I thought he wasn't an a s s and I kinda liked him because he made himself sound so innocent and nice. God #ihatepeople

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Hahaha that's gonna fail. So... Um I though my last set would make that person come back, but it made me sound really desperate wow. Yea the person didn't come back, but all 499 that stay I love you. You are all beautiful and amazing #iwouldfuckallofyou I'M KIDDING why did you guys follow me and then choose to stay. Okay well ima go draw a rose and post it on here #pleasedon'thateit #eventhoughit'sugly gawd I'm going to scar everyone #i'msupersorry
I'm starting to abuse hashtags I'm gonna leave now bye guys I L O V E YOU
 
By the way I swear that Hubert's lemonade is full of crack I felt really high and can't remember much that happened Friday
#thelemonadehascrack
 
Okay bye now

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I'm sorry come back I'll love you